ITS NOT EASY

ITS NOT EASY

Here I stand alone, on a roof top, with no one by my side. I feel empty and strange among so many out there. It is indeed lonely here. I feel the strangeness of loneliness, all my hours going to waste over the overwhelmingly thinking. Currently I’m experiencing total dullness of life, though, the moving wind I hear prevailing is like whispering to me to be calm as if there is hope to meet someone special. But the dark clouds above me, reminds me of a dull time, the time which seems will never change, or bring spring once again. 

What should I do to polish my life? Wait or find a way of my own. I remember Robert Frost, who chose a road less traveled and made his own path. But sometimes I also think, it’s funny and strange to be alone? I actually need a moment of tranquility.

The dreams I once held have all vanished with the dust, blown away to the four corners of the earth. And now I feel that I’m surrounded by jackals patiently waiting for me to give in and hungrily feast on the fruits of my life.

I’ve seen the tears on people’s faces as a result of the heart-breaking, starting from simple emotions that builds up to anger, Loss and to loss of self-esteem. I have heard the cries of the lost souls that wanders about on gravity’s, waiting to be held In the loving arms of the one that shields; - I’ve tasted the blood that leaked out of broken hearts, it’s so sour because of our mind’s directly strikes to fear, lack of confidence and brings weakness that gently caresses the body emptying out everything worthy in life..

I’m now feeling chills of the greatest fears, death drawing near, and experiencing the pain and sorrow of letting a lot to go, till my life’s string become loose at the end. I’m smelling the oduor that life releases when scared by all situations, but fairly, it’s not all easy my people.

Life is not an easy game to play with especially when you are discarded by your loved ones. There is always nothing to smile about when everything turns against your wish, that moment you feel like to disconnect from the real world.

Life is not easy when you are grateful or you give out all your energy without a reward or a gratitude- it hurts more when one is misusing you. When you are honest still life is not easy; it might also be costly when you try to play it fair when others cheat or give inconvenient promises to you.  Life is not easy to fail and keep on trying; to learn from failure and risk from failing again; to start over, and to lose with grace; and trying to avoid excuses or to resist temptations. 

life isn't easy when all your friend regroup to become your enemies; when all the best moments you had  are overtaken by worst moments, when all your happiness is drained by sadness, when all the love you had turns to hatred and when all your laughter is wiped away by ever-present  cries. It isn`t easy, it isn`t easy.

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